Friday, December 13, 2013


I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day

Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel

Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do When will I see you again

p/s: He gave me this song today. Nothing much I could say I miss him more. Deep down this heart only God knows how sad I am. How much I miss him. I also know deep down his heart he still loves me. if we are meant to be, insyaAllah we will be together. Miss you more sweetheart..


Saturday, November 2, 2013


1st November 2013. Day 17th. I’ve tried so hard to help him quit from smoking but sad my efforts all are worthless. He started smoking back. I don’t know why but I am disappointed. He’s getting bony and he seemed doesn't have a big appetite just like the time he was with me. What’s the use of having someone but they didn't take care of all this matter. I'm not there with you to watch over what you eat and to control you from smoking. You don’t have to be that bad even if we’re not together any more. Don’t do any of it because of me but because of your future and yourself. Eat food not smoke. I loved you before I love you now. Do take care of your health please.


Tuesday, September 3, 2013


3rd September 2013: This is the first time I plan a surprised birthday celebration for the person I love. To arrange this celebration took a very neat plan. One day before his birthday, I went to Secret Recipe straight away from work to book the cake then went to the target place that was Nandos. I was very nervous you know because this was really the first time for me. Never did this and not that romantic though.

On the day, we promised to meet at 8 then I told him that I want to treat him Nandos. He was okay with it and followed without any hesitation or questions. I said to myself this gonna be just fine while inside I am nervous to death. After took a seat, I said I wanna go to the toilet but actually I want to take the cake at Secret Recipe. I knew he felt weird but I had to stay cool and calm or else everything will screw up.

After the orders are all arrived, all staffs in Nandos sang a birthday song for him and brought the cake to him. He was so happy and of course felt so shy. Looked him, he was that happy, I was happy too. He can’t stop smiling till the end of the day. We shared the cake with all the customers there and Nandos staffs. One of the customers took pictures and a video of us while we don’t even have time took a video to record the day.

Each of the customers came to us and wished him a good life and a good health in future. More than 10 customers were there. Each of them prayed a good thing for him. Alhamdulillah. This was the first time and I was touched as he was so happy with it and said the surprised celebration like this was his first time. Happy. Hope I get the chance to plan lots surprised things for him. Insyaallah. Till Jannah.


Saturday, June 8, 2013


Nervousness lingering me these few days. What to be prepared for the government interview, zero idea. After I read the email that I had been chosen for Pegawai Imigresen KP17, I shocked and speechless. Happy pun ada jugak. Well siapa yang tak happy kan from millions Malaysian yang apply and thousands yang terpilih, I am one of them.

I've been reminded to bring a sportswear and only yang LULUS physical test and pancaindera can attend the interview. I don't know how the physical test is. Ada yang kata they check on BMI lah apa lah. Sigh. My nervousness increasing like shit. I still got two weeks to prepare and memorize all the information about our country, Malaysia and Jabatan Imigresen, VISA and Pasport also about pendatang tanpa izin (PATI). Objective.vission and mission. Akta Imigresen 1963 and whatever. Urghhh facts facts and facts.

Well that is it. I don't put hope too high but still I wanna do my best and of course I am glad that I was called. At least I have experience on it. Pray for me and wish me lots of luck guys.



Some stalkers they stalk because of admiration while some stalkers they stalk because of hatred and vengeance. I am not so comfortable to write lately because some of them choose to read my blog as a stalker instead of a reader. Stalker, they read  and use the information we shared as the source of vengeance. In Bahasa digunakan untuk memburukkan mengaibkan and menjatuhkan reputasi. While reader, they use our shared information as a source of knowledge and experiences.

Well for the entry today I'm not interested to write about the first type of stalker. Lets write about the second one. This kind of stalker they read my blog and they twist it into something that can strike me down. They took the input and story to other people in other way. Let say they're a very narrow minded kind of person. Immature. Yeah all blogger I bet all of them have the same talent and passion in writing just like me. What you are writing and the ideas, all of it you wanna share in a positive way but this pathetic narrow minded person just ruin your passion in a blink of eye.

Here I make confession. As this happened to me, I have no mood to write for almost one year.  Yes I feel sad. Writing and blogging is the only way for me to interact with the entire world. I am so passionate to write about every and each experience in life that I face. But this kind of pathetic stalker ruins everything. As the time passed by, I get some kind of motivation within myself, I can't quit writing just because someone wants to bring me down. The harder they push me the stronger I get up.

Thanks to the stalker for stalking me. Nothing can stop you from stalking, yes I am clearly know. But you also have to know that no one no single creature in this world can stop me from writing. This is my space and I can write about anything and anyone I want to write about. Addition, stop being such an immature person. Grow up. Kbye.


Friday, June 7, 2013


Chances. That’s what you give when you truly love someone. You just don’t care to count. You just keep giving them those chances. You don’t even care what people gonna say about you or anything. You don’t know it’s worth it or not. But at least you know you are trying your very best for that one relationship.

It’s not because you’re not valuable enough. It’s not because there are tons of guys can treat you right out there. It’s not because you’re stupid. It isn’t about the person who gives you that love but the relationship itself, the bond between both of you. The foundation that both of you build together along that relationship. Don’t have to be so long. Foundation of a relationship is much important compared to the period of that relationship itself. 

You never regret all the hard times and down times that you face. What you know is you just have to fight for that relationship.You don’t know, somehow that relationship gives you the strength to hold on. Indescribable yet you still wanna share. You got no idea why you fight hard for this one relationship but you believe for some reasons. You can't feel unless you experience it. Experience the same thing then you can describe it.  

Even you know someday in future they will judge you. Judge you as the bad character but only God knows what happens between you and him. I never asked. Everything’s already written. It’s a fate. 


Monday, April 29, 2013


I don't feel very well today. Having fever and sore throat for two days already. Unbearable pain all over the body, soooo hard to endure. I haven’t seen the doctor yet because of my very pack daily routine. Maybe if it’s getting worse today I’ll go after work then. 

But still I want to say thanks to my sweetheart for taking care of me the whole day yesterday.  He was so sweet. Bought me Nasi Goreng to eat.  Looked for me Barli Suam and fed me medicine even the way he fed me weird haha. How struggle he was looking for my Barli Suam, touched. While no body’s looking for my health condition, he was there. Always. Thanks boyfriend.

Work place. Nothing much. I’m just a bit tired and weak. Excessive workload. Just pray something good happens to me later. InsyaAllah.


Monday, March 25, 2013


Met his mom for the first time yesterday. I wanna share some. For me the first impression seems  to be okay. Just fine. Tuhan je tau how scared I am how nervous I am. But He ease everything.  

Yes I woke up early yesterday to meet boyfriend before he went back to hometown to visit his Wan. After I met him without took any shower I watched Running Man and had lunch. Suddenly boyfriend whatsapp me said that his mom asked him to ask me to follow. At first didn’t want to but when boyfriend said ‘bila lagi’, I changed my mind. Then boyfriend asked me to get ready and picked up after Zuhur prayer.

As I got in the car. Salam mama dia and smile. His mom smile back at me. Okay GOOD SIGN! Dalam masa perjalanan didn’t talk much. Better this way sebab banyak cakap nanti salah kata might ruin the first impression. Who knows.

Lepas makan tengah hari dekat sana me and boyfriend pergi belakang rumah took some of Pelam and Kendondong balik Shah Alam. That’s the story of yesterday. His mom was really kind. Lembut je orangnya. Not as I expected. Happy. May God and his mom bless our relationship till marriage. Amin J

Wednesday, March 6, 2013


1) Looking for a better job and career.

2) Study PJJ in UITM
     * Human Resources Management
     * International Business Management

3) Start up a business
     *Stock and delivery
     * Management and customer satisfaction.

These are my 2013 target. I bet it’s gonna be a busy year. I’m gonna do all important things in life for my future which are CAREER, BUSINESS and STUDY. I know it takes time to succeed but am gonna try my harder to do all of them within this year. Not sure can start all of them within this year but I’ll try. THINK POSITIVE!

Reminder for myself.  Don’t procrastinate anything. Do what you really wanna do and MEAN IT. Well maybe it’s gonna fail sometimes but not all the times. BE POSITIVE!

 I don’t want to waste my young age. The opportunity. Only once in a lifetime. All I do is for the best of my future and my family.