GOVERNMENT INTERVIEW

Nervousness lingering me these few days. What to be prepared for the government interview, zero idea. After I read the email that I had been chosen for Pegawai Imigresen KP17, I shocked and speechless. Happy pun ada jugak. Well siapa yang tak happy kan from millions Malaysian yang apply and thousands yang terpilih, I am one of them.

I've been reminded to bring a sportswear and only yang LULUS physical test and pancaindera can attend the interview. I don't know how the physical test is. Ada yang kata they check on BMI lah apa lah. Sigh. My nervousness increasing like shit. I still got two weeks to prepare and memorize all the information about our country, Malaysia and Jabatan Imigresen, VISA and Pasport also about pendatang tanpa izin (PATI). Objective.vission and mission. Akta Imigresen 1963 and whatever. Urghhh facts facts and facts.

Well that is it. I don't put hope too high but still I wanna do my best and of course I am glad that I was called. At least I have experience on it. Pray for me and wish me lots of luck guys.

Love,
LH

STALKERS KEEP ON STALKING

Some stalkers they stalk because of admiration while some stalkers they stalk because of hatred and vengeance. I am not so comfortable to write lately because some of them choose to read my blog as a stalker instead of a reader. Stalker, they read  and use the information we shared as the source of vengeance. In Bahasa digunakan untuk memburukkan mengaibkan and menjatuhkan reputasi. While reader, they use our shared information as a source of knowledge and experiences.

Well for the entry today I'm not interested to write about the first type of stalker. Lets write about the second one. This kind of stalker they read my blog and they twist it into something that can strike me down. They took the input and story to other people in other way. Let say they're a very narrow minded kind of person. Immature. Yeah all blogger I bet all of them have the same talent and passion in writing just like me. What you are writing and the ideas, all of it you wanna share in a positive way but this pathetic narrow minded person just ruin your passion in a blink of eye.

Here I make confession. As this happened to me, I have no mood to write for almost one year.  Yes I feel sad. Writing and blogging is the only way for me to interact with the entire world. I am so passionate to write about every and each experience in life that I face. But this kind of pathetic stalker ruins everything. As the time passed by, I get some kind of motivation within myself, I can't quit writing just because someone wants to bring me down. The harder they push me the stronger I get up.

Thanks to the stalker for stalking me. Nothing can stop you from stalking, yes I am clearly know. But you also have to know that no one no single creature in this world can stop me from writing. This is my space and I can write about anything and anyone I want to write about. Addition, stop being such an immature person. Grow up. Kbye.

Love,
LH.

CHANCES

Chances. That’s what you give when you truly love someone. You just don’t care to count. You just keep giving them those chances. You don’t even care what people gonna say about you or anything. You don’t know it’s worth it or not. But at least you know you are trying your very best for that one relationship.

It’s not because you’re not valuable enough. It’s not because there are tons of guys can treat you right out there. It’s not because you’re stupid. It isn’t about the person who gives you that love but the relationship itself, the bond between both of you. The foundation that both of you build together along that relationship. Don’t have to be so long. Foundation of a relationship is much important compared to the period of that relationship itself. 

You never regret all the hard times and down times that you face. What you know is you just have to fight for that relationship.You don’t know, somehow that relationship gives you the strength to hold on. Indescribable yet you still wanna share. You got no idea why you fight hard for this one relationship but you believe for some reasons. You can't feel unless you experience it. Experience the same thing then you can describe it.  

Even you know someday in future they will judge you. Judge you as the bad character but only God knows what happens between you and him. I never asked. Everything’s already written. It’s a fate. 

Love,
LH

FEVER

I don't feel very well today. Having fever and sore throat for two days already. Unbearable pain all over the body, soooo hard to endure. I haven’t seen the doctor yet because of my very pack daily routine. Maybe if it’s getting worse today I’ll go after work then. 

But still I want to say thanks to my sweetheart for taking care of me the whole day yesterday.  He was so sweet. Bought me Nasi Goreng to eat.  Looked for me Barli Suam and fed me medicine even the way he fed me weird haha. How struggle he was looking for my Barli Suam, touched. While no body’s looking for my health condition, he was there. Always. Thanks boyfriend.

Work place. Nothing much. I’m just a bit tired and weak. Excessive workload. Just pray something good happens to me later. InsyaAllah.

Love,
LH

FIRST MET

Met his mom for the first time yesterday. I wanna share some. For me the first impression seems  to be okay. Just fine. Tuhan je tau how scared I am how nervous I am. But He ease everything.  

Yes I woke up early yesterday to meet boyfriend before he went back to hometown to visit his Wan. After I met him without took any shower I watched Running Man and had lunch. Suddenly boyfriend whatsapp me said that his mom asked him to ask me to follow. At first didn’t want to but when boyfriend said ‘bila lagi’, I changed my mind. Then boyfriend asked me to get ready and picked up after Zuhur prayer.

As I got in the car. Salam mama dia and smile. His mom smile back at me. Okay GOOD SIGN! Dalam masa perjalanan didn’t talk much. Better this way sebab banyak cakap nanti salah kata might ruin the first impression. Who knows.

Lepas makan tengah hari dekat sana me and boyfriend pergi belakang rumah took some of Pelam and Kendondong balik Shah Alam. That’s the story of yesterday. His mom was really kind. Lembut je orangnya. Not as I expected. Happy. May God and his mom bless our relationship till marriage. Amin J

2013 PLEASE BE NICE

1) Looking for a better job and career.

2) Study PJJ in UITM
     * Human Resources Management
     * International Business Management

3) Start up a business
     *Stock and delivery
     * Management and customer satisfaction.

These are my 2013 target. I bet it’s gonna be a busy year. I’m gonna do all important things in life for my future which are CAREER, BUSINESS and STUDY. I know it takes time to succeed but am gonna try my harder to do all of them within this year. Not sure can start all of them within this year but I’ll try. THINK POSITIVE!

Reminder for myself.  Don’t procrastinate anything. Do what you really wanna do and MEAN IT. Well maybe it’s gonna fail sometimes but not all the times. BE POSITIVE!

 I don’t want to waste my young age. The opportunity. Only once in a lifetime. All I do is for the best of my future and my family.

Love,
LH

KNOW HOW TO LOVE YOURSELF

Love yourself that much more important. I started dating at young age and I was always that innocent girl who was committed to her boyfriend but end up with broken hearted. I was also always in a relationship. I’ve been in three relationships that lasted awhile and every single of them started almost immediately after break up.

I’m the type that would never break someone’s heart which is why I rather get dumped than to break up even it was the most miserable moment in a relationship. Eventually things changed. As I grow up I started to see things clearly. I also realized all these things happened for a something better. I enjoyed single and every single moment that time!

By living alone, I had to be on my own to appreciate myself and really made me more mature. It took me awhile to realize that I don’t need a guy to be happy and have a better life. And now currently I’m happy with my loved ones. Actually you don’t have to push yourself to have a relationship but keep believing.

Every girl ought to know how to stand on her own feet without having a man to fall back on. Always learn from your mistakes from past that’s how you gonna understand and appreciate yourself more. Sometimes we need to put others aside and do what’s the best for us. Remember that girls don’t necessarily need guys to be happy. Mr. right will coming along. Just learn to love yourself before let anyone love you


Love,
LH ❤

18th NOV 2012

It was the best day yesterday. We went for a movie and decided to watch Istanbul Aku Datang. It was a beautiful movie after all. Funny yet sweet through the combination of Beto Khusyairi and Lisa Surihani. Plus Dian was sooo cute! I did really like the plot. Lebih kurang sama with what I’ve been gone through. Siapa yang tak tengok lagi better watch sebab memang worth it!

Then me and love had Butter Rice with Gravy Roasted Chicken at Pavilion for lunch. Lepas dah pusing pusing we straight headed back to Shah Alam. Even dah makan pun still lapar. Thought of what to eat Syg decided to have Steambat at Uptown Shah Alam. Soooo yummy yummy. Makan makan dan makan.

Why it was the best day. Hmm yela siapa yang tak happy spending the day with the loved ones kan. Lepas makan borak borak talked about opinion masing masing. Talked about life people around us and our future. Thank God for having him with me. That's all I wanted. kbye

Love,
LH

5 DAYS TILL I TURN 21

Well it’s not like you turn 21 each year. The fact that is I’m gonna turn to 21 just in a few days away and I have no idea how it would be. I’m not looking forward to it actually. I finished my graduation but still I can’t come over the fact that, in the age of 21 I own a car with my own money. And in this age I thought so many things about the future. Worried about money and savings and I also have plan on applying housing loan. Too fast I know. That’s it. Talking about the celebration. I’m not into a celebration thingy same goes to my family.  Remember the date of my birthday is more than enough.

What I do before I turn 21. Loads. On last Monday, I went to a football match between Manchester City against Harimau Malaya. It was an amazing feeling when I had the chance watched a live football match. Moreover it’s my favourite football club ever, Manchester City.  Well about this I’m gonna tell in the next entry.

Okay watched football match and what else.  Hm I tried out Bazaar Putrajaya. FYI, along this fasting month, I already checked on 5 bazaars include Bazaar Section 17, Bazaar Section 18, Bazaar PKNS, Bazaar stadium and the latest Bazaar Putrajaya. Bazaar Stadium much better I guess than Bazaar Putrajaya. You should try both.

Then played bowling at Sunway Pyramid. It was so enjoyable. Why I said so. I’m not so superb in this game compared to my partner but I won for the second game. Hetric. 3 times strike.  Well don’t underestimate me hehe. He was unsatisfied because he dropped 20 points away against me for the second game so we decided to rematch. Just soon enough. Takde hal lah. Bring it onnn :D

Love,
LH

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